Monday Swim = Shower, right?
Holy Heck Batman, I haven’t blogged since, forever! I haven’t blogged since I’ve been home to Texas.
Today was an easy day. I got to swim. I was late, of course, had only a half hour, and a few extra minutes. I managed a 2000.
400 choice: I swam a 200/100 breast/back by 50’s/
4 x 100 pull working on DPS
4 x 100 first 75 EZ/25 HARD
50 EZ/50 HARD
25 EZ/75 HARD
100 HARD
4 x 100 kick with fins (same as above intensity)
200 swim
200 pull
Then, since Tennis is over I took the monkeys over the cross country course at Academy and we ran for 15 minutes. That was fun.
Sunday I ran 3.5 miles in about 30 minutes. I have been wearing my fancy watch so I don’t know for sure.
One thing I learned: Road, especially running is all about the mental game, the mental toughness.
Since my focus right now is on Palo Duro Canyon and El Paso Puzzler, my running has been for fun, medicine, and primarily off road with the mutts.
Saturday OFF. I had great intentions of swimming but with my 4 hour and 10 minute ride on Friday…I needed a full 10 hours for recovery.
Friday 1.5 hours by self
1 hour and 10 with Rose and Renee
1.5 hours with Rose, Renee and Kimmie…now those are fun times…kinda get tired of climbing….the same climbs 4 times….
Thursday….Memory lapse.
Wednesday Nice Swim: primarily drills.
Tuesday awesome fun ride with the ABQ girls down at the Bosque.
Monday drive back from TX.
Didn’t do anything in TX. Was planning to ride on Sunday but the rain, and some fumes stopped me.
This is a kinda cool/scary/make me think kinda view I had in the car on the way home. There’s a plant in the background. It’s in the middle of BFE Texas, I can’t remember the Town.
What it makes me think is: is the plant, which is clearly releasing a good deal of emissions causing all the cloud cover?
By this picture, or more by what I actually saw, it indeed looks like the plant is causing the cloud cover.
When you care about the environment, this kind of site will actually make the wheels upstairs spin…
It’s not too fun to talk about being home. It was good to be there, when you’re sick like I am, it’s hard to even imagine things like:
– Did I really feel like this every day for a year?
-How did I live that like?
-How could I function and successfully do anything, especially things that require any kind of thought function?
– How many other people feel like I do but don’t have a way to connect the dots
– I’m trying to let go of all the anger I have about my situation
I did leave with blisters in my mouth, aching kidneys, diarrhea, and lots and lots of this:
Most of them are still recovering, even today, I was bleeding spontaneously from my back. Makes me nervous going to the pool and everything because you’re not supposed to swim when you have open sores.
When I look at this, now in the picture, it looks worse than I thought it did. It’s just awful, this thing that happens to me when I go home.
I would do anything to be able to go back to the life I used to have. Not to say my life isn’t good now, it’s just different. It’s not what I had before.
OK, I cry now. Don’t you see how it’s not fair. I’m not the only person who gets sick. I saw probably a half a dozen women who were losing their hair. My hair is falling out right now. There’s a teenage girl down the street from our house who’s nearly bald. They tested her for that disease where your hair falls out. Of course, that’s not what it is, and they can’t figure out what’s making her hair fall out.
Umm, the radiation?!? K, I’m done crying. You can only move forward in the face of adversity. What doesn’t kill you, will make you stronger.
When I got home Ken and I had a good laugh about what I found in the pantry:
This is what we call: “A Severe Case Of Male Pattern Refrigerator Blindness”
If you walk into your pantry and there’s a 2 foot plant in there…well…it may be an indication that there may be something growing in there.
Maybe we could win an award at the State Fair…
And the winner is Zoe and Ken’s 2 foot organic jersey sweet potato’s…
And in the midst of it all when you think, you’re losing motivation remember this picture:
Dedication,
Motivation,
Preserverance
Determination
and if you think,
“Oh, I don’t feel like working out today, too bad for me, life is so tough…” Think of this guy pounding it out, not giving up on his dream, living the life he was meant to live.
Like you, 
Like me,
One life,
Working for a common goal.
Live your Dream.
Stay sober and clean,
keep the mind clear of chatter
your living space clear of clutter, and
you too will know what it sounds like to ‘talk to God’.